Wrapping Up a Pretty Decent Week of Writing

I'll save my more intensive blog postings for during the week. Since all of a sudden I've started writing again, and who knows how long it will last, I feel the need to pace myself, and not throw it all at you in one swoop before it disappears. Maybe it (this ability to write) will disappear and maybe it won't. I make no promises.

Highlights of my week:

• Writing again. Suddenly I'm feeling sort of creative, and this is a good feeling.
• Time with friends. We've had a rather social week this week in the Fox household. This is good for me. I even managed to give the toilet a good scrubbing in anticipation of having guests in my home. My children got to have fun with friends too this week.
• I found some more good books that I am now dying to read.
• I think I am in the midst of learning something about putting people ahead of all those practical considerations that are not necessarily life-affirming. 
• I acquired some new houseplants unexpectedly this week. I have hope that I will water them on a regular basis and not half killed them as I have some of my other houseplants.
• I read a good, though sometimes a little threatening, and not wholly unproblematic book called The Feminine Soul, by Janet Davis. In fact, I think that combination often makes for a very good book.

Lowlights?

• I've experienced some discouragement and anxiety this week. What I told Michael earlier is that I feel I am supposed to be operating out of grace and wisdom, but instead I have been operating out of discouragement, and a perceived inability to cope with normal daily life. I tend to feel kind of small and overwhelmed. I don't like being accused of being a perfectionist. I'm not. I want balance. I don't want to be good at everything. I want to be good at a few things. I don't want to run my house like a machine. I want to run it like a refuge. 
• Um, all the baby stuff came back from the friend who had borrowed it, and I had just started to make some progress in weeding unused items out of some of the nooks and crannies of our small house. I haven't been able to figure out what to do with those items yet.
• We spent some money I didn't want to, and did spend some money that I didn't. Often these choices are the right ones, but they still cost me something in terms of a certain mental dissonance.
• The coffee beans I've been grinding are past their prime, but I'm not in a position to throw them away and open a new, unexpired bag just yet. I hope that by the time I do, my other stock will not have already expired. We're coming up on August more quickly than expected.

Yesterday I told my husband, "I need a frozen yogurt, a beer, and a good cup of coffee. Do you have any of those things hidden away in your office somewhere?" I'm afraid for a moment he may have thought I was serious. I really did want those things, but I didn't actually expect him to supply them.

You know what, it kind of helps me to write all this out. So that's cool. Have a good weekend!